Thirty Seven Years of Living Hell: My Journey with My Narcissist is Johan Small’s true account of life inside a marriage consumed by manipulation, lies, and emotional torment. For nearly four decades, he fought to uphold his vows, believing love and commitment could overcome any obstacle, even the relentless cruelty of a narcissistic spouse.

Told with raw honesty and emotional depth, the book offers an unfiltered glimpse into the hidden reality of psychological abuse. Johan’s story unfolds through moments of fleeting hope, devastating betrayals, and a relentless search for answers to the “why” behind his suffering. Along the way, he reveals the insidious tactics of a narcissist, the toll it takes on family, and the mental and emotional strength required to endure.

But this is more than a memoir of hardship. It’s a message of survival. Johan’s journey is a testament to resilience, self-discovery, and the courage to finally break free. His words give a voice to those who have been silenced, offering validation for their pain and hope for their future.

The book is not only a deeply personal narrative, but it’s a powerful resource for understanding narcissistic abuse and finding the strength to reclaim one’s life.